Monday, November 30, 2009


...the sun on your face, your childs hand in yours, the frustration of too much to do, the satisfaction of paying off that credit card, the anger toward the driver who just pulled out in front of you, the renewal of Sunday morning worship, the grief of feeling your dog go to sleep for the last time in your arms.

It seems the emotion we feel and display most often is anger. And unfortunately it seems to be the most accepted. Anger absolutely has it's place...toward the child abuser, the thief, the murderer. Anger is used for walls against pain and sadness. Forgiveness and healing cannot break through the walls of anger.

Happiness...the emotion everyone strives for, many fake and few truly feel. That happiness you felt on Christmas morning as a child, the happiness you felt when you past your driving test or the happiness you felt when you saw your soon to be spouse for the first time on your wedding day.

The emotion no one wants to feel...sadness! Crushing sadness. The kind you feel when you not only have to decide to put your best friend to sleep...but hold her in your arms as life drains from her body. The sadness of a longtime marriage coming to an end or your best friend moving 2000 miles away.

Feeling is healing! Ever called up a friend and start crying at the sound of their voice? Or you're doing OK until your Mom asks "are you ok?"...then you lose it? Crying to a song on the radio or happy tears when your watching 'A Christmas Visitor'. Venting with a friend when crazy drivers, maddening bosses and unruly kids are driving us mad. We feel better when we feel...really feel!!!


Darlene (SCS:akronstamperdpk) said...

Where in the world did you learn to write so well????? This was beautiful Carolyn and truly meaningful (as I wipe the tears from my eyes so I can see what the heck I'm typing)! Thanks so much for sharing your "feelings" ... bless you for being strong enough to express them!! WOW, I'm so proud of who you are and to say "I'm her Mom!" Happy Day my dear!!

Dr M said...

A well written look into the lives of all of us who strive to "truly feel" instead of sitting in a locked, cold, dark cage watching the key being kicked around on the cold, wet pavement awaiting someone to pick it up and hold it to their chest.
Keep feeling my dear friend, keep feeling.

Amy Johnson said...

Everything you said is just so honest and beautifully written. Thank you for sharing.